Update Post (October 2023)

Yea! I managed to write a post before December. Since my last post in June, I have continued to "grow" and learn about myself, and what I want to become. It's kind of difficult to explain.

On the one hand, I want to pursue my fantasies uninhibited. Lots of thoughts going through my mind right now, in terms of my crossdressing and my pursuits. As mentioned previously, I have become more "explicit" and less-conscious in my dressing. I also thought of meeting with people and going all the way, if you know what I mean. There's no turning back though.

On the other hand, I have other factors to consider. Even though I have crossdressed for so many years, deep inside my mind I am still a "guy". With a guy mindset, it's really difficult to put down all that and get f**ked (or s**k cocks). Maybe the sissy-ness in me will prevail, I don't know.

I really want to find someone (another crossdresser or admirer) to be able to connect on another level. I don't mean that sexually, and that's really hard to do. Most people connecting via xHamster or other platforms have "sex" (or something related) in their minds, and I don't necessarily want that when we meet up in-person, especially on our first meeting. It possibly could, but not implied. During our meeting, we could help each other out on different levels, be it on dressing styles (or suggestions) and maybe more.

I honestly don't know. Feel free to let me you know what you think. Thanks for reading.


Jenny